Nervous menanti raya....

Ari ni last terawikh...malam ke 30 sudah... tinggal sehari lagik jer puasa...sedih sangat rasenyer... hurmm..tadik pon dah nangis2 dgn mak thinking of arwah pakcik (my mom's younger brother) yang dah meninggalkan kami tuk selame-lamenyer... this is our first raya without him.. selalunyer dier laa yg beria2 beli mercun bunga api cam klcc tuh...opss...terexagerate plak kan..takder laa tahap klcc..tapi ala2 gituh la kan..but this year no more....:(.... hurmm... dunno how to describe the feelings of loosing someone that reaaaaally close to you....as im writing this...i cudnt stop my tears from raining down my face..... i reaally miss my pakcik... it's been 4 months now since he's gone... rase cam baru smalam jer dier "pergi" meninggalkan kami..... he always cheering us up....he's a funny man... he's responsible of everything...dier tak lokek dgn ape2 pon.... dier sangat suke tolong org... when i was stuck at the highway in the middle of the night pon....dier sanggup jer datang redah highway memalam bute .. pastuhh pusing jauh giler nak pick me up.... highway kan takleh sesuke hati ko nak cross over kan.... hurrmm.... tak tau laa cemane nak cakap... it really hurts ....dier laa tempat mengadu my mom and me and everyone... dugaan yang sangat besar and paling berat kami rase Tuhan bg...he liked to make jokes on me.... i miss his jokes... rindu sangaattttttttttttttttt.... rase nak turn back time..but obviously tak bleh kan..... rase cam tak tau nak tempuh raye ni mcm mane.. nak dgr suara takbir pon takot....when thinking of his children... my 4 cousins tuh...lagik sedih.... my nenek apatah lagik kan....... last year we all went to bazaar time malam raye..buat last minute shopping dkt bazaar ampangan,seremban... taadik lalu laa kat situ....teringat balik.....dahh meleleh2 air mate dgn mak...... erghh....it's freaking hard to accept that he's gone forever..... raye tahun nie...ader tambah 1 lagi kubur hendak diziarahi.....rase tak sanggup nak tgk batu nisan tuh tertulis name Akhril bin Ahmad..cam mimpi jerk...hurmm......miss u pakcik...really freaking damn miss u....

Al-fatihah to my beloved pakcik...may you rest in peace.....we love you for eternity......